Why Burnout May Be an Inevitable (and Positive) Developmental Stage for HSPs

If you are experiencing a dark night of the soul, keep going.

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Once I was far enough into my recovery from severe burnout, a strange thought began occurring to me. What if my dark night of the soul, as I like to refer to it, was somehow a necessary experience for me to reach my fullest potential as a human being? It’s common for people to feel gratitude for challenging circumstances once they’re well enough in the rearview mirror, but this was different. I actually started thinking that my burnout was inevitable, and in particular the kind I experienced, which I term “existential burnout” (more on this below). I began working on a theory that not only was this burnout necessary for my own personal development, but that it would have occurred at one point or another regardless of what life path I’d chosen…and that it was a very good thing.

And then I discovered I was right. Or, in the parlance of academia, I found evidence to support my theory. A doctor, psychologist, and poet named Kazimierz Dąbrowski (Ka-ZHI-meerz Dom-BROF-ski) developed a theory in the 1960s called Positive Disintegration, which details a process that highly sensitive people (HSPs) are very likely to go through during their lives that is very similar to what I experienced as existential burnout. Unlike mainstream psychological and medical approaches that pathologize the anxiety and depression people experience when going through one of these “disintegrations,” Dąbrowski saw such emotions as an inevitable and necessary part of HSPs’ personality development. He believed that HSPs have a particular developmental path and that they quite possibly have a special purpose in society.  

Before I explain the theory of Positive Disintegration and its implications for HSPs experiencing burnout, let me briefly define what I mean by existential burnout. Some burnout is situational, like being burned out in a job or relationship, and you can deal with it through taking a break or exiting the situation. Existential burnout is a whole-life phenomenon, when you begin to question the very foundations of your life and beliefs. It is the state of emotional, psychological, and spiritual confusion and exhaustion that results from years or decades of trying to follow conventional paths and not finding satisfaction or happiness through them. This is essentially what positive disintegration is: a conflict between an individual and society’s norms, driven by a desire for greater autonomy and a feeling that there’s “more” out there, that results in many ostensibly negative emotions, a dark night of the soul.

Positive Disintegration is a complex theory, and I will only touch on the portions here that are relevant for HSPs and burnout. Dąbrowski did not use the term HSP (it was coined by Elaine Aron in the 1990s); rather, he referred to the constellation of traits comprising high sensitivity as overexcitability, or OE, which originates in an extrasensitive nervous system. If you are an HSP, you will recognize yourself in multiple types of OEs as detailed by Dąbrowski:

• Psychomotor: An excess of physical or mental energy. Can manifest as racing thoughts, jitteriness, and feeling an actual need to either think obsessively or for physical movement.

• Sensual: An extra sensitivity of the five senses. Super-tasters, sound sensitivity, sensitivity to light, etc. are all manifestations of this.

• Intellectual: An extreme desire for understanding, greater knowledge, truth, enlightenment. These are people who are driven to observe, collect data, research, analyze, and theorize. They usually love reading and are highly curious.

• Imaginational: Characterized by a highly active imagination and propensity to lose oneself in fantasy. These people can have very vivid dreams, see less of a stark distinction between truth and fiction or see truth as paradoxical, often find more pleasure living in their head than the real world, and are highly creative.

• Emotional: Experiencing intense and complex emotional responses, often accompanied by physical sensations. These people are often highly empathic, often attracted to or experience the melancholy or the “dark” side of life, and form unusually strong attachments.

I have all five of these OEs. The last three especially are associated with positive disintegration. So basically I was always on a path to existential burnout. It was required for me to reach a higher level of personal development, according to Dąbrowski’s theory. So why do HSPs experience this type of thing, and what purpose does it serve?

A simple explanation for why HSPs often experience burnout is that their sensitivities make them more prone to it. But disintegration is more than just crisis. It is a rejection of the status quo, coupled with a desire for an individual and autonomous path forward. HSPs enter their dark night of the soul because of the particular way that they experience this kind of crisis: as a disquietude with the self; the feeling of being inferior, not just when compared to others but in terms of what they wish for themselves. HSPs are highly self-aware and self-critical, and have a keen sense of themselves as being “different” and misunderstood. The path through disintegration for most HSPs involves self-education and what Dąbrowski terms “autopsychotherapy.” In other words, the path toward greater autonomy is individual and self-directed. Each person must find their own untrodden path – and this, in essence, is both the reason for and result of existential burnout. The outcome is syntony, a state of being in harmony and resonating with one’s environment: integration.

Dąbrowski believed that HSPs play a special role in society, that through their own personal experience of disintegration they could then use their learnings to help raise the level of society. But it is the implications of his theory for individual HSPs experiencing burnout that I find most compelling. I know that for me, I only began to heal when I stopped believing something was wrong with me, i.e. when I stopped pathologizing my experience of burnout (or letting others do that). How different would my experience of my dark night of the soul have felt if someone had said to me, “You’re an HSP, and what you are going through is a normal, necessary, and even positive part of your development. It’s going to hurt like hell, but you will find your way through it and emerge as a more highly functioning individual with something important to contribute to the world.” I wonder.